mmmmmm

fun night/horrible night

went to a fundraiser and played in a texas hold'em tourney...it was a lot of fun...i didnt win, but i did make it to almost the end...and was the last girl standing, which made me pretty proud...

watched my bloody valentine...ok, so admittedly not a great movie, and honestly, not even a good one, but damn, jensen is sooo fucking fine, that really, who cares?! my bff...who is incredibly awesome, obviously, also found a movie called devour, which he was also the lead in...very hot again!!! both worth seeing because hes so beautiful who cares if they were any good? not me.

hmmm...worried about a friend...called me all fucked up, wrecked out...too much to drink and telling me that he is depressed and thinks all the time about killing himself. spent a lot of time on the phone dealing with that, which was sooo not cool. nothing is worth that shit...and besides, it made me mad...damnit, i love him...he has me!!!!! he cant be giving up when i need his stupid ass around!!! ugh...why is shit so hard sometimes? seriously, i yelled at him, and told him how much he means to me, and told him some of the bs he needs to remove from his life, and threatened to have him hospitalized, cuz really? what am i gonna do!?!? made him swear to call me as soon as he wakes up and to call no matter what if he has these unnacceptable ideas/thoughts again...ugh. i may have to beat the stupid out of him...and i dont know if i have that much strength.

soo...fucked up night after a great night...wow...lifes interesting, right?