Just Don't Give Up on Me 9b/20

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Jared tapped on Jensen’s belly lightly, “I hope you aren’t too tired, old man. Cuz I’m a long way from finished with you tonight.” He teased as he shifted up to lie along Jensen’s length. He brushed fingers through Jensen’s damp hair, breathing in the scent of him, intensified because of the sheen of sweat covering his upper body.

“I’ve got your ‘old’, you fucker.” Jensen nudged Jared off his shoulder with a jerk, his grin breaking through his fake frown.

“Seriously though, Jen. So many things I wanna do to you…with you.” His voice turned serious, deepening as he turned his face and placed a kiss and lick to Jensen’s neck. “Tired of waiting, wanting for so long.”

Stretching his neck to give Jared access to any skin he wanted to lavish attention on, Jensen agreed quietly, voice raspy with emotion, “Yeah, wanted you for a long time, J.”

“How long?” Jared shifted so he could see Jensen’s face, body half covering the smaller man as he looked down on him.

What was there to lose now? Not like he could go back. Jensen brushed back silky hair from Jared’s forehead and admitted, “I dunno. A long time. Probably since we first met in some ways, but I guess I really knew about a year ago. Something like that?”

“We’re idiots. You know? I mean, I know how you feel, cuz I definitely felt something from the beginning, but I didn’t acknowledge it, or admit it, or maybe even realize, I guess, for a long time. But I know I’ve been thinking about it for at least the last two seasons. Just terrified you would hate me. Push me away and be disgusted. Didn’t want to ruin our friendship, cuz no matter what I can’t live without that, k?”

“K.” Jensen readily agreed. “Always. No matter what we will be friends.”

Jared felt a tug in his stomach at those words, afraid Jensen would use this out and pull away. Because he wanted never to lose Jensen’s friendship, definitely. But he wanted it all, now. Wanted all this he was just discovering and hoped it meant as much to Jensen as he was coming to realize it meant to him. “But.” He said softly.

Jensen looked at him, watching the emotions flit across his face, “But what?”

“That’s…I mean, that’s not all I want. I want to try this, Jensen. Try us, I mean.” He watched intently for a reaction.

Smiling up at Jared, Jensen felt a flutter in his stomach and pulled Jared’s head down for a kiss. “No way you are escaping now, J. This? This is happening.”

Jared growled softly into Jensen’s mouth, then broke the kiss and wrapped Jensen up tightly, arms and legs surrounding and squeezing tightly. “Oh Jen. You are in so much trouble.”

Feeling small and slight inside the cocoon of Jared,and finding he liked the sensation, Jensen heard the words and wondered at the meaning. “Trouble?” He breathed out, unable to draw a deep enough breath to create louder sound.

“Yeah. You are probably gonna get so sick of me. I dunno if you realize, but I can be pretty intense, demanding, needy, possessive? It’s a lot to take, but I’ll make it worth your while. I promise.”

Jensen thought that sounded pretty damn good and he nodded. “I kinda know you, J. I’m pretty intense myself, maybe even a little possessive. We might kill each other but I doubt it will ever be boring.”

Jared pulled back enough to look at Jensen again, and he almost gasped. How could he be surprised by his beauty even after all this time? Well, before it hadn’t been his, no matter how he wanted, but now? Now he could reach out and touch, hold, savor, and he was going to. He felt his cock begin to harden and shifted his hips, rubbing against the soft skin below him and felt that Jensen was already ready to go, hot and hard against his thigh. “Shit Jensen, you make me crazy. So fucking beautiful, so fucking hot.”

“You kidding? Cuz I’m looking at you right now? And you are about the most gorgeous thing I’ve ever seen.” Jensen ran his fingers up Jared’s sides, cataloguing muscles and ribs before sliding around shoulders to explore down the back he had admired so many times. His fingers spread and covered the soft round globes of Jared’s ass and they both hitched a breath.

Their mouths clashed together in an intense kiss, tongues searching frantically. Jensen drew Jared’s tongue into his mouth and sucked on it, savoring the flavor of Jared, so intoxicating and delicious. They kissed and explored each other’s mouths until their lips started to hurt and Jensen drew his mouth down the side of Jared’s jaw, slipping down to his neck and licking and sucking the warm scented skin there. Jared moaned and lifted himself up onto his arms, looking down at his new lover with lust dark eyes. “Want you, Jen. Want you…want to fuck you.”

Jensen’s eyes flared at the words and he nodded, fingers clenching in the skin beneath his hands. “Yeah.”

A flash of uncertainty entered Jared’s face, and he questioned, “Have you ever? I mean…you know…with a guy?”

“No, J. Never. None of this, nothing. Just you. ”

Jared felt a swell of happiness bubble up in him and he was overtaken for a moment, so many emotions warring for superiority. “Well, have you thought about…you know…how? I mean…do you know what you want to…”

“I…both? I want you. However you want, J. Anything you want.”

Hips hitching at those words, Jared shook his head as if to clear it. “Ok, yeah. That’s…yeah. Me too. But right now? Unless you stop me, I’m gonna fuck you, Jen. Wanna be inside you, feel you all around me.” And Jared looked for a moment like he isn’t sure that will be ok, until he saw the lust flare hot and liquid in Jensen’s clear green eyes, felt the spurt of precum smear on his hip.

“Fuck yes, J. Fuck me.” And Jensen leaned toward the edge of the bed and pulled lube out of the drawer, fingers searching for a condom. He breathed out a sigh when his fingers closed around a foil packet.

Taking the tube and tossing the condom onto the bed, Jared again looked at Jensen with eyes slightly lost. “I’ve never, either, Jen. I don’t wanna hurt you, and I mean, I’m not stupid, I get how it should work. But, just…I guess tell me…if anything is wrong or hurts or whatever? Ok?”

“We’ll figure it out. I’ll be fine. Just go slow…and I know you won’t hurt me. You…wouldn’t.” Jensen reassured him, hands sliding up and down the beautiful muscled arms in front of him.

Jared leaned in for a kiss and almost forgot his ultimate purpose when he lost himself in the feel and taste of Jensen’s mouth once again. “Shit, I could kiss you all day…all night, whatever.”

“Mmmm, yeah. Me too, Jay, but right now…I really want to feel you inside me, k?” He smiled, “Oh, and real soon I wanna return the favor. Like real soon.”

Nodding at the thought and yet slightly distracted at the thought of what was about to happen, Jared sat back on his feet, looking down at the expanse of flesh laid out for him. Jensen had at least a few freckles pretty much everywhere and he made a mental note to kiss and map each and every one sometime very soon. So many things to do. And he wanted them all.

Slicking his fingers, Jared nudged Jensen’s legs with his knees, “Raise up your legs for me?”

Jensen blushed at the idea of being so open, but his throbbing cock was on board completely with the program. Jared’s eyes flashed when he saw the crease, Jensen’s tight hole exposed to his gaze. He slid his finger down along the soft skin behind Jensen’s balls to touch that most intimate spot. He circled lightly, spreading the lube and feeling the skin, flicking his eyes up to watch Jensen’s face as he applied the slightest pressure with his slick finger.

Jensen’s mouth opened just slightly and he hitched a breath. He had no idea just being touched there would make him feel so needy. He lay silent, striving for patience when all he wanted was to get right to what he had been imagining. Despite his fear of how exactly Jared’s huge cock was going to fit inside him, he knew it was possible and wanted it to happen, and now.

Pushing steadily but slowly, Jared felt the muscle give enough for him to enter up to his second knuckle. Jensen tensed a bit and Jared pulled back slightly. The little groan sounded like encouragement, so he pushed back in slowly and was rewarded with a hesitant nod from Jensen. “It feels weird, but it’s fine. I’m fine. Go ahead.”

Jared began slowing pumping his finger in and out until Jensen was panting slightly and his hips were twitching with each push. He knew what he was looking for, but not certain where to find it. Crooking his finger and twisting slightly, Jared knew immediately when he hit Jensen’s prostate because of the small keening sound and the bubble of precum Jensen’s cock released. He rubbed lightly, eyes moving from the incredibly hot sight of his finger disappearing inside Jensen to watch his face.

“Fuck, fuck. That’s….wow. More.” Jensen huffed out, voice sounding husky and needy.

Jared pulled his finger back and inserted another slowly, this one sliding in easier as he stimulated Jensen’s prostate. He again searched out that spot, finding it quickly this time and pulsing against it lightly, then twisting his fingers and spreading them. His cock twitched as he thought of how tight and hot it was inside Jensen and how incredible it was going to feel. He wasn’t sure how long it was going to last once he got started. He couldn’t wait to feel that tightness around him, though so he brought his mind back to the task at hand.

“I think…fuck…I think I’m ready Jay. Just do it. Come on. Fuck me. Please.”

Jared gripped the base of his own cock at the words, staving off what he was afraid would be the end of their attempt to finally have sex. “Fuck, Jen. You’re gonna kill me. I’m not gonna last anyway, but we aren’t even gonna get started if you keep talking like that.”

He was so hard again, despite having come less than an hour ago, he was thrumming with it. He bit his lip and watched as Jared tore open the condom, hastily slid it on and slicked up his cock with what looked like half the tube of lube. He felt himself clench up a little as he thought about how big that cock was and how much it might hurt to get it inside him, but he forced himself to relax. Jared would never hurt him, as evidenced by the amount of lube coating his dick at the moment.

Jensen felt the head of Jared’s cock at his entrance and lifted his ass to meet him, encouraging Jared to sink inside. He could feel Jared’s body trembling as he pushed forward and breached him. It burned and Jensen had to fight not to tell him to stop, knowing that it would get better once he got past the initial pain. Jared was torn between watching his cock slip inside Jensen’s ass and watching Jensen’s gorgeous face for signs that he was alright.

Jensen lifted one leg and then the other, wrapping them around Jared’s hips. Jared stuttered slightly, and pushed until the head of his cock was inside, then clenched his teeth hard. He was afraid to push any further until he knew Jensen was ok, and until he was sure he wasn’t going to come right away from the feeling of the tightest pressure he had ever felt squeezing his dick.

Grimacing at the pain, Jensen lay still for a moment. Jared looked like he was going to pull out, fear for Jensen washing across his face. When Jensen saw it, he took a deep breath and pulled Jared in with his heels, embedding his cock deep within his ass.

“Oh God.” Jared threw his head back and groaned deep within his chest. “Fuck, Jensen, fuck…you feel so damn good. I…so hot , so fucking tight…never felt anything…”

Jensen worked to stay relaxed, it had hurt, did hurt, but it was already starting to recede. He was beginning to enjoy the feeling of fullness and pressure, along with the knowledge that Jared was inside of him and how good it obviously felt for him. He squeezed Jared’s hips with his thighs and slid his hand up into Jared’s wet hair. “Move, Jay. Come on…fuck me. Let me feel you. Show me how good it can be.”

Jared looked down at the man under him and tensed, holding back as hard as possible to keep from coming. “Jensen.” He closed his eyes for a long moment and then slid out about halfway before slowly sinking back into the tight passage.

It felt…strange. Not exactly good, but not bad. Jensen focused on the feel of Jared’s length sliding in and out slowly, and just when he started to feel like it was never going to be a big deal, maybe he was only going to really like topping, Jared shifted and leaned back, hands moving down to Jensen’s hips. Jensen jerked as Jared picked up his pace and started hitting his prostate, his body clenching hard.

The clench of Jensen’s muscles becoming even tighter sent a hard spark through Jared and he pounded into him, hitting that spot over and over, hand coming to jerk Jensen’s weeping cock in time with his thrusts. Less than a minute passed before Jared keened Jensen’s name and came, whole body twitching and jerking out of control as he filled the condom.

Jensen followed sometime in the middle of Jared’s orgasm, thick spurts of cream lining his own and Jared’s belly. The combined feeling of Jared hitting his prostate and jerking his cock creating so much sensation he was sure for a moment he would pass out.

Almost dropping down onto Jensen in the boneless aftermath of such an intense orgasm, Jared caught himself just in time and flopped next to the sweaty body beneath him.

They lay for a long time, panting, limbs entwined and sweat slicked, both a little amazed at what had just happened and how incredible it had been.

Getting a second wind, Jared practically bounced on the bed as he lifted himself into a crouch over Jensen’s prostrate form. “That? That was unbelievable!” His brow furrowed and he ran a finger down Jensen’s cheek, “Was it…you know? Did it hurt? Fuck, please say I didn’t hurt you, Jen.”

Jensen smiled, enjoying the enthusiasm and concern all wrapped up in Jared’s voice. “It was unreal, Jay. Really. I was scared there for a bit, cuz I wasn’t sure it was gonna really do it for me, thought you were gonna have to be the one taking it from now on. But then…yeah…it was fucking awesome.”

“Really?” Jared sounded like his usual inquisitive self. He was intrigued now, wanting to know how it would be to switch it up. “Hmmm. When do you think you will be ready to do it again so I can see how it feels to have your huge dick inside me? “

Jensen laughed, not sure if he was getting turned on or just amused by Jared’s enthusiasm. But before he could answer, Jared was talking again.

“But you are willing to do that again, too right? Cuz dude, seriously? That felt like nothing you have ever felt before. It was amazing, you were so hot inside and I’ve never felt anything so tight, ever. And let’s get tested so we don’t have to have anything between us, yeah? I want to feel all of you.”

When Jensen was quiet for several long moments, Jared peered at him closely. “What’s wrong? You said it was good. You don’t wanna do it again? What?”

“Just waiting for when you let me talk, dude.” Jensen teased, wanting to pull Jared down and wrap him up. He loved excited, enthusiastic Jared. It was one of his favorite incarnations of Jared, actually.

Jared wrapped his arm around Jensen again, squeezing tight. “Sorry. Ok, I’m listening. Go.”

“Now I don’t even remember the question. But yeah, it was great. Yes I want to do it again, and yes I want to fuck you, too. And I think testing is a great idea, then the first time I top maybe we don’t have you use a condom, that sounds perfect.” Jensen paused, burying his nose in the top of Jared’s head and breathing him in. “Does that cover all the questions?”

Jared smiled against Jensen’s chest, reveling in the fact that Jensen was in his arms, in his bed, and was smelling Jared like he was something delicious. “Well, no. I think the original question was about when you might be up for the next round.”

“Mmmm…give me five minutes.” Jensen said.

Jared was asleep in three.

chap 10




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