Just Don't Give Up on Me 14/20

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The next month flew by in a haze of love and laughter, discovery and exploration. The wrapping up of the season was quick and easy, despite the tough emotional drama of the series finale. Neither discussed the future, Jared confident that it would work itself out and Jensen refusing to think about what it might hold for them.

They both headed home to visit parents and relatives for the first week of their hiatus, certain they were going to miss each other, but knowing the following week would find them together at the Australian convention.

>>Miss u.

>>miss you too, j. glad to see family but not the same without you here.

>>Yeah. Actually looking forward to Australia so I can see you.

>>even i’m looking forward to it. wanna reschedule so we can fly over together? am I gay for asking that?

>>I’m pretty sure gay was having ur dick in my ass. And yeah, I wanna fly over together. Send me ur flight info.

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>>im hard. wish u were bent over taking my dick right now.

>>Fuck, Jen. I’m totally hard now 2 & im at my grandma’s house. Not cool.
>>So, what else?

>>ha! guess you’re alright with grannie now? want to taste your cock, suck it down and let you fuck my mouth.

>>Yes. Please. (and I’m in the bathroom now) You gonna let me cum down ur throat?

>>how about on my face and I lick it all off?

>>You’re killing me. You’re gonna make me cum just from text messages. Lame and so fucking hot.

>>you stroking that gorgeous cock and thinking of me, j?

>>Fuck yes! Starting toleak precum. Amke me cum, pls.

>>you must be close since you aren’t able to type a decent text. wanna smack your ass run my finger over your wet cum flled hole before shoving it inside andfinding that spot that makes you cum so hard.

>>U cant type either jen. fuck yes. finger my ass and suck my leaking cock.

>>want me to stop suckin your cock long enough to eat my cum out of you?
>>j? ??

>>Fuck, Jen. That was awesome. I needed that. Now my grandma’s bathroom smells like cum and I have to go sit on the couch and talk about when I’m gonna have babies. Wanna have my assbabies, Jen?

>>fuck you Padalecki. more likely you will be the one having assbabies, you take it more often than I do.

>>Love u Jen.

>>Love you J. Cant wait to see you Thursday.

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Jensen watched, hip against the bar as across the room, as Jared swayed to the music, then slid into the beat and the rhythm, getting lost and eyes closing as he became more entranced. He wasn’t sure what was playing, some pop techno shit that never appealed to him, except when he watched it move through Jared. He also knew he wasn’t the only one watching as Jared moved sensuously. Fuck, it looked like no one in the vicinity wasn’t watching Jared, damn him and that fucking gorgeous face and killer body.

Fuck it, they were in what? Sydney, Australia? This place was crazy and he was pretty sure they weren’t the focus of much attention, other than Jared putting out the ‘fuck me’ vibe to anyone in his range. He wasn’t sure he could have controlled this alpha male moment he was having no matter where they were or who might be watching right now.

Turn it up
Heat it up
I need to be entertained

Sitting his half full beer on the bar, Jensen made his way purposely toward his target, his determination parting the crowd without him giving it conscious thought.

“Whatchu doin, Jare?” He breathed, voice harsh, pulling those swaying hips back into his, fitting them together, and letting Jared’s movement begin to guide his own.

I told ya
Imma hold ya down
Until you’re amazed
Give it to ya
Til you’re screaming my name

He felt the breath hitch inside him at the surprise of Jensen’s sudden appearance before he answered, “Just dancing, Jen.” He turned his head to answer, in order to be heard over the music blaring through the room.

“You sure, J? Cuz it kinda looks like you are advertising that you want to get fucked.” Jensen’s fingers dug a little deeper into the grooves at Jared’s hips, two digging into exposed skin on either side above low riding jeans.

Jared felt himself go almost instantly hard. Jensen was usually so laid back, so quiet. Fuck. “No.”

“No you aren’t sure or no you aren’t advertising or no you don’t want to get fucked?” Jensen pressed his aching cock deeper into the groove of Jared’s ass, feeling his own heartbeat along with Jared’s, as well as the beat from the music thrum through him.

“I…” Jared felt slightly off kilter, the feel of Jensen pressing into him and his slight buzz mingling with the hypnotic tempo of the music creating a swirl of confusion in his brain.

“You sure you weren’t inviting that sweet little brunette over there for a taste of your cock? Just your type and she looks like she would love to suck you off right here. Or how about that twink over there. He has been eye fucking you since you started dancing, probably thinking about how a huge guy like you would be huge all over and how you would probably bend him over and fuck him so hard it hurt. But they don’t know...” He sunk his teeth into the skin of Jared’s neck, tonguing the softness in contrast to his teeth digging deep.

Do ya know what you got into
Can you handle what I’m bout to do
Cuz it’s about to get rough for you
I’m here for your entertainment

”They don’t know how you like to take it, do they? How you fucking beg me to bend you over and fuck this tight little ass. How much of a slut you are for my cock in your ass, or in your mouth, how you just spread out, open up for me. Or maybe you don’t want my cock anymore? Out here acting like you might want to put your dick somewhere new tonight. God, can’t leave you alone for one minute. They all want you, see how beautiful you are and just want to have a piece of you.” Jensen was growling now, his voice sounding more like Dean than himself; his uncertainty, fear and jealousy creating an ugly, twisted monster inside him.

Jared felt some of the haze slip away as his lover’s words registered, and he tried to turn into Jensen’s embrace. Needing eye contact to reassure him that Jensen wasn’t actually as angry, as dark as he sounded right then. Fuck. But Jensen just thrust against him, fingers bruising as he held the larger man in place. “What’s wrong, baby. Don’t want to dance with me? No fun if you can’t find something new out here?”

Oh, I bet you thought that I was soft and sweet
You thought angel swept you off your feet
Well I’m about to turn up the heat

“Fuck, Jen. No. What the fuck?” Jared ground back into the cock at his back, hands coming to reach around the ass behind him, slot them closer, as if that were possible. Fuck. As if he had even thought about anyone else since this whole thing between them started. As if there could possibly be anything that would come close to this, whatever they had between them. It had been a long time coming and it was the center of Jared’s universe now, more everything than any relationship he had ever been in. Hell, Jensen had been the center of his universe long before this if he was being honest with himself.

Baby I’m in control
Take the pain
Take the pleasure
I’m the master of both

Jensen could feel his cock leaking, creating wetness inside his underwear. The realization led to another as his fingers registered Jared’s lack of underwear beneath his jeans. This sent a surge of uncertainly through him that almost dropped him to his knees. He had been jealous, but he wasn’t really thinking Jared had any intention of cheating, but no underwear? That scared him, like maybe it was real, this awful feeling of fear he was struggling with. Had something happened already tonight?

Close your eyes
Not your mind
Let me into your soul
I’ma work ya til you’re totally blown
No escaping when I start
Once I’m in I own your heart

Too much. This was too much. Now he was wondering, wondering if maybe Jared had already been with someone tonight, wondering if he was looking for someone else even if he hadn’t, mostly wondering what happened when Jared decided this was all fun and everything, but it was time to go looking for another pretty little brunette that he could flaunt to the world. The fact that he was already this scared meant Jensen was in too deep. It was gonna hurt like fuck when Jared got sick of this and it was over. Every day, every touch, every kiss, every one of these moments was just digging him in deeper and would leave that much larger a hole in Jensen’s heart and his life when it ended. He could feel his heart start to bleed.

So he loosened his grip on Jared’s hips, brushed his fingers across the abused flesh one time, breathed deeply at the groove of his neck and shoulder, filling his lungs, mind, heart and soul one last time with that scent. His Jared. Then he stepped back, dropped his hands and turned and walked away.

Jared was so stunned for a moment, he almost fell back when Jensen’s encompassing presence disappeared, then he came back to himself and turned, a questioning look on his face, only to see the back of Jensen’s head as he moved swiftly away through the crowd. He hesitated only a confused moment before heading in the direction he could still see his lover taking toward the door. What the hell?

Jensen didn’t feel the hands of random, wanting strangers that reached for him, brushing against his hips, abs, chest, ass, hell even his crotch as he moved through the crowd. His mind was already shutting down, and these people? They didn’t even register on his radar enough to acknowledge. He just pushed through, needing to get away, get air, get his walls back in place so he could survive this. He could survive this, right?

chap 15




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